I'm Gay - Eugene Lee Yang

  • Published on Jun 15, 2019
  • Eugene comes out as gay in his original, deeply personal music video, featuring music by ODESZA.
    Written, Directed, & Choreographed by Eugene Lee Yang
    A Moment Apart” & “Intro Instrumental” - listen now at odesza.lnk.to/amaYT
    Set Photography by JD Renes Photography
    Co-produced by EVERYBODYNEEDSUS
    Executive Producer - Cathleen Cher
    Producer - Sally Sujin Oh
    Director of Photography - Adam Lee
    Production Designer - Matt Soko
    Editor - Jonas Thorhallsson
    Colorist - Jakob Thorhallsson
    Hair - David Dang
    Makeup - Arianna Chaylene Bean
    Stylist - Farren Jean Andrèa
    Stylist Assistant - Kali Mackay
    Hair for Ensemble - Cayla Solomon
    Makeup for Ensemble - Kasha Lassien
    Oscar Utiérre
    Farren Jean Andrèa
    Malan Breton
    Eugene Lee Yang
    Sister - Grace Yoo
    Brother - Intae Kim
    Mother - Terumi Shimazu
    Father - Gary Murakami
    Girl - Sophia Oddi
    Boy - Joshua Blaine
    Kim Chi
    Jazzmyne Jay
    Rhea Litré
    Mayhem Miller
    Curly Velasquez
    Arisce Wanzer
    Jason Beaubien, Ryan Blake, Sol Deleo, Mitchell Flores, William Fryt, Mario Godiva, Delaney Goodman, Carter Lee, Jake Mason, Ava Minett, Loretta Minett, Rene Punzalan, Hector Sanchez, Donavan Sanders, Daniel Suarez, Aus Wang, Roman Young
    Hind Boa, Justin Chen, Isaac Chu, Felicia Coito, Maiquel Denee, Kate Duffy, Alexandria Herring, Gideon Jacob, Samuel Johnson, Dyan Jong, Aris Kakkis, Danny Lam, Jeremy Lam, Shantell Lamb, Doinelle Macabugao, Lesha McBride, Annie Nguyen, Pat Nguyen, Robyin Nguyen, Devin Parker, Nick Rufca, Alyssa Santos, Zain Shami
    Assistant Director - Clyde Goins
    2nd AD - Dolly Gray
    Music Supervisor - Cathleen Cher
    1st AC - Dawson Taylor
    2nd AC - Oscar Martinez
    Gaffer - Devon Wilson
    Best Boy Electric - Vince Valentin
    Key Grip - Huan Manton
    Best Boy Grip - Justin Lee
    Art Director - Spencer Trent
    Set Dresser - Devin Parker
    Crane Operators - Ryan Elliott, Mike Pusatere
    Production Assistants - Delaney Goodman, Izzy Mojamiid, Sergio Ochoa
    Catering - Humberto's Catering
    Weho Dodgeball
    Now More Than Ever Artists
    East West Players
    Virtual World Arcade
    Adam Foley & Ninja Tune
    Special Thanks To!
    Thanks to all of our Gold Level Patrons! AJ S., Amy Fleming, Ana Camba, Cat Hicks, Elisa Proust, Emma Godfrey, Erica Rao, Jared Aarons, Kelsey Bock, Kourtney Wong, Loretta Wen, Matthew Tadros, Miha, Paulus, Sarah Waxman, Traci Lew, Wendy Tran, Lily
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Comments • 145 742

  • Mento
    Mento 3 minutes ago

    this is pretty gay ngl

  • Creature Born4Rain
    Creature Born4Rain 17 minutes ago

    You go queen !
    I am bi and proud
    Thank u for paving a way through this world for me to be me

  • rach ding
    rach ding 26 minutes ago

    I cry every time I watch this, it is just so beautiful

  • Chaco
    Chaco 53 minutes ago

    i would smash

  • The Drawing Kid/Animated kid

    Not gonna say I knew it
    But I knew it

  • amazing Hannah
    amazing Hannah Hour ago

    Every once in a while I rewatch this and I just feel so proud of everything about this. It is the most beautiful way of coming out and it never fails to make me cry. Thank you 💜

  • GuavaPooP ØWØ
    GuavaPooP ØWØ Hour ago

    Hey, I need help guys...

    It's with my sexuality...
    Im wondering if I lesbian or bi or something else...
    So first imma tell my crush 'history'
    My first ever crush was on one of my bf (best friend) that imma call him Jared, I've had a crush on him for like about 4 ish years? But the thing was that I never really was attracted to him I never wanted to kiss him ect. K so that was my first crush then I had like little crush crushes on two girls that I will call Kayla and Mia sooo yeah and rn I got a massive crush on one the girls on my hockey team (we're 3) her name is Zahra (its not her real name) and like I wanna hug her and kiss her all the time she soooooooo cute.
    Now I'm gonna talk to oh guys about my personal life and how I am . So I'm nice I care about people all the time even I can get mad easily but I can control my temper I'm a tomboy all my friends are boys I love sports, I play competitive hockey hm that's pretty much it sooo ya

    That would mean much to me
    Thx bye

  • Simran
    Simran 2 hours ago

    I actually can't watch this without crying

  • Queen Denny
    Queen Denny 2 hours ago

    Watch it be
    by the end of 2029

  • Christine Romero
    Christine Romero 2 hours ago

    Beautiful dances I am so appreciated by this so beautiful and inspiring to this community ❤️💙💙💙💗❣️💙❣️💙❤️


    no one is talking about this video even though it was on RU-clip rewind like this is supposed to be known by everyone not just lgbt+ ppl.

  • Jordan Schmidt
    Jordan Schmidt 3 hours ago

    good for eugene

  • Esra Dein
    Esra Dein 4 hours ago +1

    Wow... I am speechless ^^

  • izumi lee myoji
    izumi lee myoji 4 hours ago

    oh god im crying its so beautiful. for me i got teased and bullied for liking girls but now i know that you shouldn't listen to other peoples opinions you should just do whats right for you.

  • Red Rynx' Wolf
    Red Rynx' Wolf 4 hours ago

    Kind of obvious he was the whole time, and I admire that

  • Amber Rauh
    Amber Rauh 5 hours ago

    I watched this when it first came out in June... it's December and this video hit me just as hard as the first time. beautiful job.

  • Roszek Gaming
    Roszek Gaming 5 hours ago

    listen, idk why but that actually made me cry like a pig and I’m not ashamed of it at all.

  • The Grim Reaper
    The Grim Reaper 5 hours ago

    Now really? I did not expect that...

    • Ripabcdef W
      Ripabcdef W 3 hours ago

      The Grim Reaper it was made about 7 months ago stupid

    • Ripabcdef W
      Ripabcdef W 3 hours ago

      The Grim Reaper do you not know your months in order

    • The Grim Reaper
      The Grim Reaper 3 hours ago

      @Ripabcdef W "Also" stop being a judgemental prick and get a life instead!

    • The Grim Reaper
      The Grim Reaper 3 hours ago

      @Ripabcdef W It wasn't even posted a month ago.

    • Ripabcdef W
      Ripabcdef W 4 hours ago +1

      The Grim Reaper Also don’t try to act like an edge lord with that name

  • Brian Dotson
    Brian Dotson 6 hours ago

    This was absolutely amazing. It definitely resonated with me personally. I actually teared up at the end. Thank you Eugene.

    POGRYTH SNAP* 6 hours ago

    Not Gunna lie Eugene is fit

  • SpiltOrangeJuice YEE-HAW

    I understand what he feels his dancing and story made me cry, thanks for helping me understand who I am

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous 7 hours ago

    Oh great. Another super feminine ‘coming out’.
    Thanks for making it harder for us regular gays to come out.
    Most of us aren’t like this. And I’m so disappointed.

  • GalaxyFighter431
    GalaxyFighter431 7 hours ago

    This is so damn emotional on him coming out

  • meme Queen
    meme Queen 7 hours ago

    I dont like it, i love it

  • lıonel messi
    lıonel messi 7 hours ago

    You are bitch

  • Maeve1010
    Maeve1010 7 hours ago

    What an amazing and touching video! It tells such a moving and tragically beautiful story. Stay strong. Be you. Your support for the community is truly praiseworthy!

  • Manuela
    Manuela 7 hours ago

    You have no ideia how much i cried during this

  • Angel fairy
    Angel fairy 8 hours ago

    I love you eugene

  • Vittorio Ravanese
    Vittorio Ravanese 8 hours ago

    gay is not okay

  • Gacha_Potato Lover :3
    Gacha_Potato Lover :3 9 hours ago

    Oh hunny we could already tell-

  • Nigga Nigga
    Nigga Nigga 9 hours ago

    Stop fucking boys yuh gay Lord

  • Nigga Nigga
    Nigga Nigga 9 hours ago

    Aye u ah fucking gay nasty mc

  • Martina Stanislav
    Martina Stanislav 10 hours ago


  • eden freislich
    eden freislich 10 hours ago +1

    Hits me everytime

  • imbannedfaetesco
    imbannedfaetesco 11 hours ago

    Y'know, that's pretty gay.

    • Good Bye
      Good Bye 4 hours ago

      It’s pretty and gay

  • MEY
    MEY 11 hours ago

    This is never gonna get old...

  • Steve Mano
    Steve Mano 12 hours ago

    Wasn’t it obvious the whole time?

  • Nazmun Nisat Ontika
    Nazmun Nisat Ontika 13 hours ago

    WoW. Superb job Eugene 💙 great content.

  • JeroenKlio
    JeroenKlio 13 hours ago +1

    anyone else then me who knows this song from Forza Horizon 3-4? and btw congrats Eugene i'm inpresed on your decision. happy for you

  • Amber Smith
    Amber Smith 14 hours ago

    God! This is so Goddamn fucking beautiful! It deserves all the awards! It strikes such awe in me everytime I watch it! Not only is it art but it's inspiring! 👏👏👏👏👏

  • Hailey Kubasek
    Hailey Kubasek 15 hours ago

    Ugene beat me in coming out bty I am pan so I of course came out of the pantry playing Dina Ross I coming out

  • Misheel Tumurkhuu
    Misheel Tumurkhuu 15 hours ago

    OMG I LOVE YOU EUGENE ❤️🥰🏳️‍🌈 im an Asian and my parents are really homophobic but i love your pride🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

  • Andromalius :P
    Andromalius :P 16 hours ago


  • Hayley Turton
    Hayley Turton 19 hours ago

    YAS QUEEN im a kid on my mums account and just wanna say that you've inspired me SO MUCH [and yes my mum knows im writing this]

  • Lucy
    Lucy 19 hours ago

    how could anyone dislike this? It's beautiful and a lot of thought went into this production. We need each other, not hate.

  • Lilla Larsen
    Lilla Larsen 20 hours ago

    You + Todrick Hall = Imploding Universe

  • Destinee Marquez
    Destinee Marquez 21 hour ago

    This hurts...

  • Shun Yu Ella Wong - Bauhinia

    Red - Eugene is in a typical Asian household; where his mother and father follow stereotypical gender roles. His sister ends up mimicking the mother in her actions ( putting on lipstick and dancing ballet), whereas his brother does his father (physical and verbal aggression). Eugene realizes he is different as he finds himself trapped and circulating between mimicking his mother and father.

    Orange - Eugene is in a church. Other followers of the church follow a sequence and dance in a designated pattern without ever breaking form. Eugene starts dancing in a distinctly different choreography; illustrating his feelings of unfamiliarity with the unity in this religion (specifically Christianity). A stranger approaches him and forces him back into the pews, portraying his involuntary conformity to homophobic Christian ideologies.

    Yellow - Eugene appears to be physically intimate with a girl. It is then revealed that even though they are in a literal sense seemingly closely acquainted, he shifts his focus to a man dancing beside them. Eugene steps away from the girl and it is made known to the audience for the first time that his choreography is in sync with that of the man. Eugene and the girl embrace before he walks into the arms of the other man. This may allude to a real-life experience where Eugene is expressing gratitude to a female ex-lover who helped him realize his sexuality and instead of ridiculing him, supported him through his exploration.

    Green - Eugene walks into a room full of vibrant, flamboyant and androgynous people like himself. It appears to be a nightclub for similarly sexually non-conforming people. A man walks in with his hand in the shape of a drawn gun. This is an allusion to the Pulse shooting in Orlando, whereby 49 people died and 53 people were injured, most of whom were gay. This marked a historical turning point in the gay community, when the dangerous and even fatalistic nature of being a gay person in the modern world became very real almost instantaneously.

    Blue - Following the last section in which the vibrancy and vitality of the gay community ended in bloodshed, the audience is immediately met with violence in the opening of the blue segment. Here it can be observed that Eugene's attackers were adorned in pure white; ironic in the sense that it represents innocence and peace. The consequences of the Pulse shooting are solidified - and instead of being supported and accepted by his family, Eugene is similarly greeted with disgust and disappointment in particular by his father and sister dressed in white, as opposed to his brother and mother, dressed in black. Eugene hereby illustrates the situation where his own family is divided, in the moral judgement of the existence of his identity as a gay man. The motif of black and white is introduced here as an important part in the subsequent purple section, whereby white symbolizes the traditional concepts of moral virtue.

    Purple - As an open-ended conclusion to the progression of Eugene's story, the audience is met with the imagery of him walking towards our gaze while being pushed around by a heated mob composed of people dressed in white and black. As previously mentioned, these two groups are perceived as two opposing ideologies regarding Eugene's or in a bigger picture, the gay community's existence in their sexual identities. The music fades into an incomprehensible but vehement discourse between the different members of the mob, inflamed with conviction. Eugene ignores the crowd and fixates his penetrating stare at us, the observers. We are reminded of the reality that he has to live in, where his very identity is constantly scrutinized, denied, pulled apart and examined by people. This may well not be a complete conclusion of his story, and instead can be interpreted as a call to arms of sorts.

    Please feel free to correct or add more information!

  • Anita Hedrick
    Anita Hedrick 21 hour ago

    This was so beautiful! It gave me goose bumps. I loved every bit of it, keep doing you Eugene, because you’re doing amazing.

  • sarah
    sarah 21 hour ago

    This video literally made me break down in tears. I feel like I just lived this entire journey with him over again. Wow eugene is talented

  • Katholeen Love it
    Katholeen Love it 21 hour ago


  • Alexa De Santiago
    Alexa De Santiago 22 hours ago +1

    It’s just so beautiful and i cry every time i watch it

  • K. gy
    K. gy 22 hours ago

    I’m straight but my god this video made me cry it’s so beautiful

  • Beeb The Dweeb
    Beeb The Dweeb 23 hours ago

    I've watched this like 40 times now because it's so inspiring especially after watching the behind the scenes ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Bear Trap
    Bear Trap 23 hours ago

    There is a difference between being a gay man and being a cringey individual. This is cringey flamboyant garbage.

    • Itsjustme
      Itsjustme 10 hours ago

      not really, it’s a story that is beautiful

  • Samantha Fahey
    Samantha Fahey Day ago +1

    Is it just me but the future is gonna remember the gay community by this and ellen

  • Jyenyfer Ricapa Soto

    Ya perdí la cuenta cuantas veces he visto éste video. Es muy emocional 💜

  • Qxeer
    Qxeer Day ago

    Wtf always thought he was straight

  • Damon Lor
    Damon Lor Day ago +1

    Honestly, people who are homophobic just need to sit the fuck down and shut up about it, like we’re human too, just cuz you like females doesn’t make you special, we don’t go “ugh, you’re straight”

  • Sara Laura
    Sara Laura Day ago +1