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  • Published on Jun 13, 2019
  • Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
    Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
    twitter.com/danielhowell
    instagram.com/danielhowell
    facebook.com/danisnotonfire
    And subscribe to my channel! ru-clip.com/user/danisnotonfire (lol)
    Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
    Special thanks to ru-clip.com/user/AmazingPhil for production assistance.
    Art by Hector aka twitter.com/swatercolour
    Soundtrack:
    Handel - Messiah
    Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
    Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
    Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
    Schubert - Ave Maria
    Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com
    Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
    Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:
    youngminds.org.uk/
    www.samaritans.org/
    papyrus-uk.org/
    www.stonewall.org.uk/
    www.hrc.org/
    www.thetrevorproject.org/
    www.trevorspace.org/
    switchboard.lgbt/
    minus18.org.au/
    www.glaad.org/transgender
    www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/
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  • Lil_Miss Lonely_Heart

    9,451,769 views. about 1/80 of these views are mine bc my ADHD ass can't focus. I got distracted by this man's BEAUTIFUL FUCKING FACE!! and his sparkly jacket... probably mostly the jacket. but also partially the face. and laughing at the jokes.

  • Jake Walker
    Jake Walker Day ago

    THE LIGHTING....
    OMG and THE JACKETTT.....
    YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!
    I LOVE IT
    also big relatable, especially the label thing XO

  • El-La La-La
    El-La La-La Day ago

    I know this might seem really stalk-ish/fangirl or whatever, but trust me it’s not. I had a dream last night and Dan was in my dream for some weird reason, and I haven’t watched any of his videos for like a month???? Is is weird or what?

  • El-La La-La
    El-La La-La Day ago

    I know this might seem really stalk-ish/fangirl or whatever, but trust me it’s not. I had a dream last night and Dan was in my dream for some weird reason, and I haven’t watched any of his videos for like a month???? Is is weird or what?

  • El-La La-La
    El-La La-La Day ago

    I know this might seem really stalk-ish/fangirl or whatever, but trust me it’s not. I had a dream last night and Dan was in my dream for some weird reason, and I haven’t watched any of his videos for like a month???? Is is weird or what?

  • Jack Kaczmarski
    Jack Kaczmarski Day ago +1

    28:17 😂

  • Bruh Wannabe
    Bruh Wannabe Day ago

    Urgage

  • Christina Parker

    Awesome vlog. Love you Dan

  • Derp Fox
    Derp Fox Day ago

    So...when the marriage?

  • Derp Fox
    Derp Fox Day ago

    Like we didn't know already XD

  • Elephant Girl 0622

    I really want that jacket but my ADHD would keep me from doing absolutely anything if I had his jacket.

  • Some emo girl
    Some emo girl Day ago +2

    I'm watching this for the 8th time and it still makes me cry

  • kate
    kate Day ago

    ew

  • Sophie G
    Sophie G Day ago

    What about lizzy :0000

  • Steven Baker
    Steven Baker Day ago +1

    Congrats my friend

  • TaterTot Thot
    TaterTot Thot Day ago +1

    If that title doesn't describe me, I don't know what does.

  • Jade Meyrick
    Jade Meyrick Day ago +1

    All I have to say is THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

  • TaeTae CutiePie
    TaeTae CutiePie Day ago +1

    This video makes me really happy

  • Fanta Lover
    Fanta Lover Day ago +1

    Lady door/female exit/queen cage 🤣😂😂🤣

  • Red Oxygen
    Red Oxygen Day ago

    I'm 15 wtf is bebo?

  • Jada Byrne
    Jada Byrne Day ago +1

    ive watched this video 8 times and it's still the best video on youtube

  • I'm a little nuts
    I'm a little nuts Day ago +1

    G-note alert God damnit. What the hell 😡 sorry that triggers my emo

  • Jezzibolt
    Jezzibolt Day ago +1

    Thanks! I’m glad you’re doing you, man, and that you’re cool with yourself. Thanks for being you. I hope people are understanding and supportive. I have hope that most will be.

  • Gabrielle Lewis
    Gabrielle Lewis Day ago +1

    Dan... a tol boi from england
    This video is filled with to many jems

  • hiya_its _Amy_boo
    hiya_its _Amy_boo Day ago +1

    Im crying . Emotional rollercoster

  • Kristen Yeh
    Kristen Yeh Day ago

    dan really needs to do a ted talk, he could help so many more people

  • ItsBigDaddyShrek

    I'm so proud of you❤

  • Leanne Reek
    Leanne Reek Day ago

    i love you! I am so proud of you love!

  • McCall Chambers
    McCall Chambers Day ago

    Dan Is Not A Strait Guy

  • Bethany Chambers

    Aww this video is so sweet and yet so sad because it's true and real. Hopefully this helps many people that see this while going through the same thing.\(^-^ )/ yay progressive homosapiens and unspontaneously combustible formless blobs!

  • Oxygen Destoroyah
    Oxygen Destoroyah Day ago +2

    It's gross how people fetishize Dan x Phil and other real life people to fuck each other.
    Stop it.

  • Ella McLaughlin
    Ella McLaughlin 2 days ago +2

    Dan, please come back. I know it’s probably hard right now but 6.6 MILLION people need u right now

  • Yacoop Sofe
    Yacoop Sofe 2 days ago +2

    ok

  • Tania Laura
    Tania Laura 2 days ago +2

    this made my day

  • LordMcSwagTache - sh*tposts

    Why on earth does this have 45k dislikes?

  • x Itz Leila x
    x Itz Leila x 2 days ago +2

    I wasted 45 minutes of my life on this....

    • kate
      kate Day ago

      Wow, what a bitch. Go be obnoxious somewhere else, no one wants you here or cares about your opinion. 👋

  • Chloe _07
    Chloe _07 2 days ago +2

    A month later I’m still sobbing?...A month after watching He comes back to making me cry 😂 I’m so sorry but I swear to god as if you haven’t had this enough but I am incredibly proud of you and I hope you know there are a lot of people out there that love you. ❤️🌈 can’t wait for the next vid take you time you deserve it after feeding us this masterpiece x

  • Laurynn Kraemer
    Laurynn Kraemer 2 days ago +14

    Time Stamps
    ❤️ Chapter One - The Word 2:08
    🧡 Chapter Two - Feelings 9:35
    💛 Chapter Three - Internalized Oppression 16:50
    💚 Chapter Four - Labels 31:52
    💙 Chapter Five - Fear 38:57
    💜 The End 45:09

  • give this weeb some oxiJIN

    i'm so sorry on behalf of all those people who made you afraid of being who you are, Dan. Bless you with only the best from here on.

  • Its a kind of Queen
    Its a kind of Queen 2 days ago +3

    9:07 literally every wattpad ever

  • Unknown
    Unknown 2 days ago +1

    "Wow that me"

  • RandomStuff Studios
    RandomStuff Studios 2 days ago +2

    Thank you for putting into words how I feel when it comes to my gender identity. I always thought the whole "formless blob" thing was dumb, but you made me feel less alone, thanks :)

  • charlotte
    charlotte 2 days ago

    I feel like 18:55 was an unintentional book of mormon reference

  • brenpineapples
    brenpineapples 2 days ago +3

    I’ve watched this shit 6 times omfg I wish I had this when I was 12 😭🏳️‍🌈

  • Courtland Tapp
    Courtland Tapp 2 days ago

    Wow, love you

  • Miah Vasquez
    Miah Vasquez 2 days ago

    I can hook you up if you wany

  • Madi Day
    Madi Day 2 days ago

    Thank you

  • Peyton Saunders
    Peyton Saunders 2 days ago

    Oh my god, serotonin-deficiency wave is my favorite too.

  • Shawn Flores
    Shawn Flores 2 days ago

    “Peaked at 5 in every way” BITCH ME TOO

  • suzanna
    suzanna 2 days ago

    Yes im watching this again
    yes i cant help it
    and yes im going to laugh/cry through the entire thing
    ..again..

  • :D
    :D 3 days ago

    My eyes are dry yet??

  • L!zzy R0se
    L!zzy R0se 3 days ago +1

    Why would you g note me/ play welcome to the black parade, why my emo heart can't take this T-T
    I'm sorry this seems besides the point

  • victoria
    victoria 3 days ago

    I love u biiiitchhh fuck

  • Elle
    Elle 3 days ago +1

    brilliant video. i loved every second of it

  • Elle
    Elle 3 days ago +1

    the part about wanting humanity to be eradicated
    that me af

  • Lilac Goldpetal sketch

    4:00 literally me 🤣

  • Tamik
    Tamik 3 days ago +1

    I've been waiting so long for u too aploud *i can't spell* and this video made me happier and sad at the same time

  • Frick
    Frick 3 days ago +1

    “Bisexualé”

  • Maria Foust
    Maria Foust 3 days ago

    So proud of you❤❤

  • Undead Gaijin
    Undead Gaijin 3 days ago

    Big shocked face

  • Fuvy
    Fuvy 3 days ago +3

    *Fanfiction wants to know your location*

  • Cinnamon Panda
    Cinnamon Panda 3 days ago

    I knew, and I wanted to date the guy 🐈...but he said he wasnt so.

    • Cinnamon Panda
      Cinnamon Panda 3 days ago

      Oh so he had this idea and thats why he was in such denial

  • whitecraayon
    whitecraayon 3 days ago

    saw it coming but... ahhhhhhhhhhhh. anyway, i love you dan!!!!

  • omaiow
    omaiow 3 days ago +2

    So that 2020 wedding is gonna happen

  • scarjst
    scarjst 3 days ago +1

    this is the first time I cry watching one of your videos

  • Logan Bloo Hoodie
    Logan Bloo Hoodie 3 days ago

    Like we ain’t know

    • bittersweetener
      bittersweetener 3 days ago +4

      he specifically asked people not to say that.

  • crispy celery
    crispy celery 3 days ago +2

    When your family asks why you dont have a girlfriend

  • Tenisha Reniewick
    Tenisha Reniewick 3 days ago

    Dan, I am so happy for you and you feeling good about yourself. The ones that support you have always wanted you to be happy. You should be happy being you and not give a shit what anyone has to say about it. You be who you are and as for anyone that does want to be in the know, that is your business and yours only. You deserve your privacy and you owe no one an explanation. Love you and you will always have my support

  • Scottish
    Scottish 3 days ago

    Daniel you really 27 .

  • sunnyside crying
    sunnyside crying 3 days ago

    Me watching this video multiple times to pass time

  • extremelyhappysimmer

    so is phil his boyfriend? the fan girls were right all along!! dan x phil is canon now!!

    • j o c y
      j o c y 2 days ago +1

      🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

    • Lyanna Grace
      Lyanna Grace 2 days ago +3

      That's not at all what he meant. I feel bad for you if this is the only thing you gained from this video

  • TheTea
    TheTea 3 days ago +3

    Now Shane’s dream can come true

  • Twocheslch
    Twocheslch 3 days ago

    Bro, u got a green light on it face? Was that intentional? Is there a green screen behind u? Are u ok?

    • j o c y
      j o c y 2 days ago +1

      Omg do u not realize this video has chapters and each chapter he has a light on his face and it makes a pride flag

    • Shira Schwarts
      Shira Schwarts 3 days ago +1

      Throughout the video he had the lights make a rainbow on his face

  • Elizabeth Balas
    Elizabeth Balas 3 days ago +1

    this video is amazing dan omg

  • glabnar the viewer
    glabnar the viewer 3 days ago

    Honestly i felt this

  • Aflicted Ana
    Aflicted Ana 3 days ago +1

    I’ve watched this 45 MINUTE VIDEO like 8 times when I’m feeling low, it’s so nice relating to someone that I’ve looked up to for years. Seeing Dan be okay after so much trauma helps me see that maybe I will be okay in the future as well... anyway Thanks Dan for making me feel better I love you so much

  • Weizenkaltschale
    Weizenkaltschale 3 days ago

    Hey Dan, thank you alot for this video!
    Also im honestly pretty shocked that there are still people that deem being *insert anything that a human can be* as "unnatural".
    Isnt the fact that there is a human that is whatever they deem to be unnatural pretty much proving that it is natural ? *thinking*
    Anyways, great video that helped me a lot in hoperfully someday breaking out of my specific shackles.

  • Waddles The pig
    Waddles The pig 3 days ago +1

    I kinda had to rewatch the video cause I spent the most of it staring Into his jacket

  • Ember Steele
    Ember Steele 3 days ago +1

    Dan.... I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!

  • Sally Makes
    Sally Makes 3 days ago +1

    Love you thank you for this xx

  • Mr.Fancypickle
    Mr.Fancypickle 4 days ago

    Yaaas sister

  • bittersweetener
    bittersweetener 4 days ago +2

    i'm back

    for the fourth time

  • Dacey Marston
    Dacey Marston 4 days ago +1

    "Some stupid hedgehog looking motherf***er" ~Daniel Howell 2k19

  • JessicaFEREM
    JessicaFEREM 4 days ago

    I love your videos, and this is great. Thank you for all the years of great videos :)
    PS. Don't forget the eye padlol

  • DWMSnIpez
    DWMSnIpez 4 days ago

    3:56 my life

  • Sophie Eleanor123
    Sophie Eleanor123 4 days ago

    ❤️❤️❤️

  • Qesho
    Qesho 4 days ago

    Bruh

  • Madi Jensen
    Madi Jensen 4 days ago +4

    I forgot what it felt like to not feel so alone. Thank you Dan for reminding me.

  • Jace Ok
    Jace Ok 4 days ago +1

    Dan:And it apparently makes people fell attacked
    Dan:Shhhhh it’s ok

  • sxft txtorials
    sxft txtorials 4 days ago +4

    imagine after saying all of this,he found out the camera wasn’t recording 😹

  • Perfectly Sedate Endscreen Dance

    i love you so much dan thank you so much ilu

  • Olivia Stuck
    Olivia Stuck 4 days ago +1

    ❤️❤️❤️ thanks Dan for making people in this community feel much more safe

  • Skyler Barnett
    Skyler Barnett 4 days ago +1

    YOU BLACK PARADED ME!

  • Hilola Kahorova
    Hilola Kahorova 4 days ago +1

    Горжусь тобой !❤️

  • Christina Dewar
    Christina Dewar 4 days ago +1

    Glad you made it this far

  • your majesty,
    your majesty, 4 days ago +3

    i noticed that you have teared up a little during some parts of the video. i genuinely hope that you have recovered from all your hardships in your life & i am glad that you are a little more comfortable in your own skin.

  • A. S.
    A. S. 4 days ago +2

    I’m back here lol.... it’s 3am.

  • Lo0serx3
    Lo0serx3 4 days ago +1

    all I can say is thanks for this.

  • Dog Person
    Dog Person 4 days ago

    Why does he look almost exactly like my friend and act exactly like her??? 🤨

  • Maya Cosmos
    Maya Cosmos 4 days ago +1

    The maze runner had me dying as well as Le Mis