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  • Published on Jun 13, 2019
  • Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
    Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
    danielhowell
    danielhowell
    danisnotonfire
    And subscribe to my channel! ru-clip.com/user/danisnotonfire (lol)
    Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
    Special thanks to ru-clip.com/user/AmazingPhil for production assistance.
    Art by Hector aka swatercolour
    Soundtrack:
    Handel - Messiah
    Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
    Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
    Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
    Schubert - Ave Maria
    Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com
    Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
    Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:
    youngminds.org.uk/
    www.samaritans.org/
    papyrus-uk.org/
    www.stonewall.org.uk/
    www.hrc.org/
    www.thetrevorproject.org/
    www.trevorspace.org/
    switchboard.lgbt/
    minus18.org.au/
    www.glaad.org/transgender
    www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/
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Comments • 100

  • Joanne Sherluck
    Joanne Sherluck Hour ago

    dude are you good. i miss you.

  • Maja Islinger
    Maja Islinger 4 hours ago

    "...drinking bottles of smirnoff ice.." me looking at my shelf where at least 6 empty bottles are chilling

  • june k
    june k 5 hours ago +1

    If he doesn't come back on the year mark I will cry

  • june k
    june k 5 hours ago +1

    A year without uploading , please come back with a tag

  • june k
    june k 5 hours ago +2

    It will be a year since he posted this in a week.



    Dan please come back we miss you :(

  • june k
    june k 5 hours ago +1

    Dan please come back it's been a year

  • Madison Callender
    Madison Callender 5 hours ago +2

    This is definitely not the first time I've watched this and I'm still cheering at 38:36 👍👍

  • Maria Cillan
    Maria Cillan 6 hours ago +1

    Back here for Pride. I miss you Dan. Hope you're taking care of yourself. Love y'all

  • CK Paragas
    CK Paragas 6 hours ago +1

    And thus pride month made me return to this masterpiece.

  • ruby hargreaves
    ruby hargreaves 8 hours ago +1

    you deserve to be happy dan

  • Evie Smith
    Evie Smith 8 hours ago

    Hey, I know that everyone has said this before, but I'll say it again, because it needs to be said over and over again. I'm personally amazed by the confidence you have to share the things about you that mean so much and have been a struggle to accept. It helps so many people every single day, myself included. You are a wondeful, caring, adorable, human bean, and the internet is so lucky to have you. I'm sure I could be expressing this better, but typing is hard when you have tears in your eyes. Dan, if you're reading this, please know that we respect you for taking time for yourself, and all we want is for you to be happy, so no matter how long of a hiatus you need to take, the people that care will always be ready to accept you back into their arms. (And we miss your amazing sense of humor) Please continue to do what you need, and don't ever stop doing what's right for you :) We will always, always, always support and love you.
    Edit: I forgot, Happy Pride!

  • kade's reading
    kade's reading 11 hours ago +1

    hahaha am i crying bc i'm proud of you and hope to find acceptance as you did?? well no one has to know

  • Tiffany Brown
    Tiffany Brown 13 hours ago +2

    sis said “you know what, i am gonna leave...“(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

  • Beth Wats
    Beth Wats 14 hours ago +3

    Couldn’t be me watching this for the 200th time *nervous laughter*

  • reidisdoodling
    reidisdoodling 16 hours ago +8

    hi dnp comments 😊😊😊
    i hope you’re doing really well and you have a nice day.
    ily, keep it up ❤️❤️❤️

  • kaitlinmkw2005
    kaitlinmkw2005 17 hours ago +8

    This entire comment section is a struggle tweets account

  • Raina Williams
    Raina Williams 17 hours ago +3

    me SUPPORTTTTTTTT UUUUUUuuuU

  • Jack Leo
    Jack Leo 18 hours ago +2

    How does this still apply to today?

  • sr 05
    sr 05 23 hours ago +6

    that was beautiful.

  • Scarlett Kenny
    Scarlett Kenny 23 hours ago +7

    It’s been a year ouch

  • Lillie Mae
    Lillie Mae 23 hours ago +3

    Oh and thank you x

  • Lillie Mae
    Lillie Mae 23 hours ago +5

    I’m so proud of you even tho I’m 10 👏🏻👏🏾👏🏿

    • violets
      violets 22 hours ago +2

      enjoy being 10 while it lasts lol
      (I'm turning 19 soon)

  • BagheeraThePanther
    BagheeraThePanther 23 hours ago +4

    Hey Dan, it’s been almost a year. I miss you-

  • • ioanna d •
    • ioanna d • Day ago +4

    Its been nearly a year since this video and its still iconic.

  • Lesqie
    Lesqie Day ago +1

    Cool

  • Darkness_ Editz
    Darkness_ Editz Day ago +4

    We miss you more than anything 🥺

  • Paola
    Paola Day ago +4

    i miss u emo boy i hope you are okay

  • Liz Combs
    Liz Combs Day ago +7

    alrighty what this years video gonna be

    • Paige Madison
      Paige Madison 15 hours ago

      @Liz Combs 😂

    • Liz Combs
      Liz Combs 15 hours ago +2

      @Paige Madison i WISH i could forget ab that LMAO

    • Paige Madison
      Paige Madison 16 hours ago +1

      @Liz Combs oh yea, forgot bout that 😅

    • Liz Combs
      Liz Combs 16 hours ago +1

      @Paige Madison not with corona 🥴🥴

    • Paige Madison
      Paige Madison 16 hours ago

      A new tour 😅

  • Abbigail Pile
    Abbigail Pile Day ago +6

    its been 11 months. WHERE IS MY FUNNY RELATABLE DEPRESSING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMES

  • no
    no Day ago +4

    anyone else keep coming back to this video?

  • emily maybe
    emily maybe Day ago +9

    WHERE ARE U MANNNNNNNNN
    been watching you since fucking butterfingers

  • Sophie Evans
    Sophie Evans Day ago +3

    I miss dan so much it’s unreal

  • Leo Tannen
    Leo Tannen Day ago +5

    Did anyone else come back to watch this because of the amazing sparkly jacket?

  • egglet
    egglet Day ago +5

    in the next century i'm going to need this video in some sort of museum somewhere. it's so important.

  • Vidushi Agarwal
    Vidushi Agarwal Day ago +2

    YOU GO DAN!!!WE ALL LOVE YOU!!!!!

  • siobahn
    siobahn Day ago +1

    he really pulled a jontron on us

  • thebookishkid
    thebookishkid Day ago +5

    I miss dan especially his videos with phil and their friendship
    Like if you do too

  • Lunar Scorpio
    Lunar Scorpio Day ago +8

    Dan is one of the most resilient people in existence. Absolutely wonderful.

  • Lunar Scorpio
    Lunar Scorpio Day ago +5

    It’s pride month and I’m rewatching this in tears, send help.

  • Aimee Coatsworth
    Aimee Coatsworth Day ago +6

    Part of me wants to learn this word by word and quote it in every conversation in I have

  • Kal is Your pal
    Kal is Your pal Day ago +4

    I miss you dan you were one of the things that got me through my life

  • Lunu Bunuku
    Lunu Bunuku Day ago +2

    "You were born this way..."
    Nice video Dan, we loved it, and I loved it more after that Gaga reference.

  • gay_meme_trash
    gay_meme_trash 2 days ago +1

    Woo pride month

  • 83 Protons
    83 Protons 2 days ago +5

    Happy Pride Month ❤🧡💛💚💙💜. I hope you'll be ready to return to us soon

  • Kindalwindal tv
    Kindalwindal tv 2 days ago +4

    I hope your ok dan. I dont know what i would be doing with out you and phil. Please come back.... please

  • Talanisacrackhead
    Talanisacrackhead 2 days ago +3

    ive watched this 100 times
    im not even joking

    • Izzi H
      Izzi H 2 days ago

      I have too instead of doing work

  • Sparklebabylol
    Sparklebabylol 2 days ago

    imy

  • Maia Garza
    Maia Garza 2 days ago

    I miss you... a lot

  • Ren •
    Ren • 2 days ago

    hi crying

  • Julie Cantor
    Julie Cantor 2 days ago +2

    Hi, still here. Still love you and rooting for you and hope you are well!

  • vicky a
    vicky a 2 days ago +5

    good to know i'm not the only person still here

  • Thecla Shubert
    Thecla Shubert 2 days ago +2

    This is the such an empathic and nuanced way to discuss this - thank you

  • Dacey Marston
    Dacey Marston 2 days ago +6

    i can’t believe it’s been almost a year 🥺

  • Jodie Marie
    Jodie Marie 2 days ago +2

    I rewatched this whole video to hear “and this is when i met phil”

  • m .
    m . 2 days ago +3

    10 DAYS.

  • Talanisacrackhead
    Talanisacrackhead 2 days ago +1

    my teacher compared a pride flag to a bible once when my friends and i had pride flags for an in school riot and we were sent to the office for "forcing our agenda on everyone" when shes the one that compared a peice of fabric to a bible that people use to insult others.

  • Faye Ryder
    Faye Ryder 2 days ago +2

    Does anyone know where I can find this jacket?! 😍

  • Alessandra Cordero
    Alessandra Cordero 2 days ago +3

    i miss you

  • rachel kinion
    rachel kinion 2 days ago +8

    pov youre me watching this for the 47th time bc i miss dan sm

    • Izzi H
      Izzi H 2 days ago

      No it’s the 123 time

  • Candy Pop
    Candy Pop 2 days ago +6

    update for no one in particular: Dan its been nearly a year we need you pls come back

  • SolidTadpole
    SolidTadpole 2 days ago +5

    oh yeah by the way, Dan is still alive lmao, he posts on twitter still :)

  • Uma Manikoth
    Uma Manikoth 2 days ago +4

    i miss him so much

  • Sarah Leale
    Sarah Leale 2 days ago +3

    I think you are amazing for living your life the way you want to. Enjoy being you Dan. No one else can be you.

  • emiley jones
    emiley jones 2 days ago +6

    Dan: the time in the world coincidentally being not much longer. Climate change LMAO
    *2020 enters the chat*

  • emiley jones
    emiley jones 2 days ago +3

    Dan: *being philosophical*
    Me: ha, half shreck half smurf

  • Kelsey Sanderell
    Kelsey Sanderell 2 days ago +4

    How was this video released almost a year ago. That’s crazy. Dan we all love you and we really miss you. I really hope we eventually get some new videos from you.

  • essie
    essie 2 days ago +3

    dan dropped this then took a runner

  • yoshistar0708
    yoshistar0708 2 days ago +2

    Am I the only one who still thinks teachers still do absolutely nothing about billing and stuff like that?

    • Izzi H
      Izzi H 2 days ago

      My schools review are literally bullying problems

    • yoshistar0708
      yoshistar0708 2 days ago

      Taylor Catherine yes! Bullying 100%

    • Taylor Catherine
      Taylor Catherine 2 days ago

      do you mean bullying? if so yes i agree

  • Spirits
    Spirits 2 days ago +1

    I don’t think Dan will come back anytime soon, considering Pridefall.

    • Sophie Rose
      Sophie Rose 8 hours ago

      they're coming after smaller creators (if they even do much at all) so i think dan would be fine anyways

  • Yana Varnichenko
    Yana Varnichenko 2 days ago +4

    Here I am again, for the 20th time. I am glad that he is taking his time and he deserves his time off, but I miss him so much. Also, happy pride month!

  • Erica Levinson
    Erica Levinson 2 days ago +4

    If he doesn’t post soon, it’s gonna be a whole year. Damn

  • Riley Xaiver
    Riley Xaiver 3 days ago +1

    :-)

  • yi
    yi 3 days ago +2

    still a great video

  • GachaJuri
    GachaJuri 3 days ago +2

  • jaime
    jaime 3 days ago +3

    coming back to this video almost a year later HURTS

  • Jay Trent
    Jay Trent 3 days ago +3

    I watched over half of this video before realizing this was Dan from Dan and Phil lol

  • dun dun dun
    dun dun dun 3 days ago +12

    Anyone else watching this during pride month quarantine?

  • Jess Saunders
    Jess Saunders 3 days ago +10

    if dan comes back after this video has been posted for a year, i will scream. i miss him so much :(

  • Lizzie
    Lizzie 3 days ago +9

    damn
    this still makes me cry every time

  • Nadia Millones
    Nadia Millones 3 days ago +5

    Dan I'm waiting for your epic comeback in this month.

  • L B
    L B 3 days ago +4

    I swear every youtuber got bullied at school .. it makes sense though

  • SuckUrMum Lol
    SuckUrMum Lol 3 days ago +3

    we miss and love you dan :’) 💕

  • Jayde
    Jayde 3 days ago +6

    Happy Pride Dan 🥳❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️‍🌈

  • TheOnionQueen
    TheOnionQueen 3 days ago +6

    Dan is formless blob that’s it that’s Dan

    • Izzi H
      Izzi H 2 days ago +3

      Throw in a posh accent

  • Royal Squid
    Royal Squid 3 days ago +7

    I am now watching this instead of doing schoolwork bc this is life now

  • Lucianna Romeave
    Lucianna Romeave 3 days ago +5

    I love how he posts once a year now 🤣

  • Jessica Marie
    Jessica Marie 4 days ago +7

    All I need to survive 2020 is a new video from Dan 😔✊🏼

  • Seuudisj Hshdjdkdk
    Seuudisj Hshdjdkdk 4 days ago +7

    oh my god I remember FREAKING OUT when this uploaded.. has it really been 11 MONTHS?

  • Fernanda Santos
    Fernanda Santos 4 days ago +3

    I miss you
    But I hope you're ok and living your best life

  • Melodie Thurman
    Melodie Thurman 4 days ago +3

    lol why did he disappear?

  • Spicy Idiot
    Spicy Idiot 4 days ago +6

    And here I am, back again

  • usu xyx
    usu xyx 4 days ago +3

    Daniel, please...

  • rocío
    rocío 4 days ago +2

    i miss him

  • FadedTimes
    FadedTimes 4 days ago +8

    Happy Pride month! Again-

  • Maturely Disapointing Member of Society

    I hope you all understand we are having an anniversary party in 12 days for this video. It's gonna happen. Happy pride month.

  • Maturely Disapointing Member of Society

    This Phandom has the most dedicated people I've ever met. Whenever I come back to this video, I find people waiting and it makes me feel connected.
    (I understand many have left us, but honestly I think the more vocal and lovely people are all the fans coming back to the comments

  • ABS K2 SUBION
    ABS K2 SUBION 4 days ago +4

    Hi sir good day i like your Content love it beautiful new friends stayconn godbless you always

  • Slytherin
    Slytherin 4 days ago +6

    happy pride month to whoever reads this whenever they read it, you are valid and loved!

  • Juicy Lemon
    Juicy Lemon 4 days ago +4

    What happened to Dan?

  • Caterpillow
    Caterpillow 4 days ago +7

    The 47k people who disliked had their vision blurred by their tears