The Dark Side of Being a YouTuber

  • Published on Feb 6, 2019
  • I've kept this secret for almost a year now, hiding behind a smile in my videos. Little did anyone know I was pushing through one of the hardest moments of my life, but I pushed far enough that now I'm ready to talk about my harassment because nobody else should settle for being treated like this. I hope this can help you in dealing with your own battles. When I say I love you guys, I truly do mean it.
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    *None of the names in the video are related to the real person(s)
    *Please do not go on a search to find out who these people are, that is the opposite of what I wanted this video to do.
    This isn't just about being a RU-clipr, it's about being someone that goes against the grain and having to deal with people who will do anything in their power to stop you from achieving your dreams.
    Your "weirdness" is usually your greatest strength. Remember that.

Comments • 10 862

  • Tiffany Cartier
    Tiffany Cartier 3 hours ago

    Dang all this over RU-clip videos. Where people have a right to speak about what they want? They have serious issues.

  • Nikole Gonzalez
    Nikole Gonzalez 4 hours ago

    We buy 2 for my little brother bc he needs it and we get 2 for the older ones in the family cause it 6 of us so yeah is it just my family

  • Morgan Wawrzynski
    Morgan Wawrzynski 6 hours ago

    Welcome to AZ!!

  • Tomas Juan
    Tomas Juan 8 hours ago


  • Sammie Andrews
    Sammie Andrews 10 hours ago

    Ewwwwwww........... I just don’t know what to say....

  • Kideto Hellfire Mibu
    Kideto Hellfire Mibu 19 hours ago may never know it could have been for your sister not you....a lot of newer youtubers that get attacked specially if they find out they are related to another youtuber

    • Kideto Hellfire Mibu
      Kideto Hellfire Mibu 18 hours ago

      Sorry I know I know nothing but I do know one thing I’m always told don’t make everything about you kinda hurtful but you do know it’s not all about you you have your mom and sister who you think about which is nice and makes me kinda like you 😸

  • Nandini S K
    Nandini S K Day ago

    This has been in my recommendation for soo long but never clicked it but today and it was worth watching to see how brave u were the entire time nd never lost hope. Good luck dr nd those shits will get what they deserve coz of Karma😘

  • Jade Leveritt
    Jade Leveritt Day ago

    Dang I'm planning on being a RU-clipr this is help for in a way

  • Claribel Ramos
    Claribel Ramos Day ago

    MY FAMILY HAS BOTTEN 4 GALLONS OF THE SAME MILK AT ONE TIME. Because of my lil bro who loves milk, older bro who loves oreos and milk, and i just eat cereal, it's a family of 6 with my grandma 😀

  • Walkin' Tall
    Walkin' Tall Day ago

    They were idiots. If they ever get connected to the sperm, and piss.... That's a SEX CRIME, and WILL get you on the sex offender registry. You're a piece of shit peeping Tom!! And getting off on it? I pray they are caught! They will escalate, and next step could be breaking in and raping someone!
    Also... You SHOULD have pressed charges! Those cops put in allllll that work for you, kept your family safe, and for nothing. You think those idiots learned a lesson? No. They didn't. I guarantee in a few years they'll all be in jail.

  • cadence mcmillan

    i’m so sorry :( u have a new subscriber 😁💞 what sorry if this is creepy, but what shampoo and conditioner do u use? because ur hair looks so soft and shiny


    I’m so sorry I’ve been bullied to but at school and ur video has gave me confidence

  • Raquel Mendes
    Raquel Mendes Day ago

    At the end of the video how she was inspiring us I was just like "you know imma subscribe" and I did

  • My Vids
    My Vids Day ago

    I just saw this rn, it just came on my recommendation but I hope u r safe now

  • Shads Edge
    Shads Edge Day ago


  • Shads Edge
    Shads Edge Day ago

    why does bad things have to happen to good people?

  • lbsal
    lbsal Day ago

    caryns literally an ANGEL. fuck the boys who did this bullshit. she’s AMAZING

  • BBB_ CCC
    BBB_ CCC Day ago

    Can someone clear this up for me? she said she went inside her house took a shower and was up until the sun rose but in the videos it looks like daytime so did she film those videos after? I’m not saying this in a mean way just curious

  • Martin The Fish
    Martin The Fish Day ago

    What age are you?

  • Karli Kleinhans
    Karli Kleinhans Day ago +1

    Your AWESOME!!No matter what people think,say or anything else,at least your entertaining people and making them(like me) happy just by just watching YOU!!!Love you and keep doing what your doing!!😊❤ SOOOOOOOOO glad your ok😘

  • shooketh
    shooketh Day ago

    The people who vandalized ur house should trip over a knife

  • pretty gang fair

    Now I'm scard I don't want to continue my RU-clip channel

  • Mikaela Lawson
    Mikaela Lawson 2 days ago

    First, I’m so sorry these boys did this to you. But this was not because you’re a RU-clipr it was because your sister met a sociopath. Things like this happens all the time when guys get jealous when rejected. I’m glad you’re all safe!!

  • Bianca Palacios
    Bianca Palacios 2 days ago

    Thank you for sharing this was truly inspiring I hope one day I’ll be able to meet you and tell you that in person..

  • alexa v
    alexa v 2 days ago

    at the end how you were like “a girl wants to try out for the football team or a boy wears makeup for the first time to school and get weird looks” an autistic boy in my school tried out for the cheerleading team and everyone makes fun of him and I feel bad

  • Gabriella Saesee
    Gabriella Saesee 2 days ago

    “Police Woman”

  • sydney beckett
    sydney beckett 2 days ago

    the sick part is that they probably knew that they were gonna get caught but still went through with it.

  • Hira Hans
    Hira Hans 2 days ago +1

    She lowkey looks like a brunette version of Catherine from the ACE Family

  • Kristy Kemp
    Kristy Kemp 2 days ago

    Did you make them pay your mom her $1,000 back?

  • BTS is LIFE
    BTS is LIFE 2 days ago +1

    So was michael was in or not ?

  • Gabriella Jososemito

    You're eyes are so pretty, are those your real lashes? Furthermore They're also pretty 😍😂 I sound so dumb but they are

  • Kobe Clark
    Kobe Clark 3 days ago

    And that’s what I call a badass you are a strong women god idk what I would do if I were in your situation

  • Londyn schnell
    Londyn schnell 3 days ago

    wait couldn't the police analyze the pee to see whos it was? then you would've found out.

  • Pop Tartz
    Pop Tartz 3 days ago +1

    This is the scariest storytime ever on RU-clip

  • Sanjana khan
    Sanjana khan 3 days ago

    You and your sister did way better than the detective you guys had and the cops. You guys are the definition of strong women. These people who did this to you guys are disgusting. But its good to know you guys are okay now ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • Diamond Glare
    Diamond Glare 3 days ago

    New subscriber ❤

  • Aura Diaz
    Aura Diaz 3 days ago

    why would anyone dislike this ? honestly... i really wanna know

  • ashley lopez
    ashley lopez 3 days ago +1

    Wow this video is amazing. Your message should be spread to everyone!!💕💕

  • Jordyn Amen
    Jordyn Amen 3 days ago

    wtf I live in Ari

  • Bird Buns
    Bird Buns 3 days ago

    Oh wow I live in Nebraska!!! What town were you in?

  • Carmen v
    Carmen v 3 days ago

    I live in Nebraska too.

  • santra fairy
    santra fairy 3 days ago

    WHY do you not have security cameras on your house girl? :(

    • santra fairy
      santra fairy 3 days ago

      That was a great video though. Your message is very strong. I was bullied at school at some point as well so it’s very important not to be affected and keep being strong. 🌸🌷💜💙🦋

  • Ella Stephens
    Ella Stephens 3 days ago


  • Ella Stephens
    Ella Stephens 3 days ago

    i’m so sorry this happened to you. my house has been egged before and it was horrible. the whole back wall (there was a basketball court behind my house so people could’ve been back there) was covered in eggs. we never found out who did it, even to this day.

  • Miah Villareal
    Miah Villareal 3 days ago

    I live in az!

  • mariela r
    mariela r 4 days ago +1

    I would’ve shot em bruh

  • Jared Kitty
    Jared Kitty 4 days ago

    How they found you 😒

  • Preston Lee
    Preston Lee 4 days ago

    22:03 you must not have 7 siblings haha

  • Kaihliya Laurendine
    Kaihliya Laurendine 4 days ago

    the police or detectives could have tested the shit and the piss maybe even the sperm to see who it belongs to duh like tf

  • madi Drennen
    madi Drennen 4 days ago +7

    when i heard abt the sperm thing that made me so sick. who the hell does that.

  • Karen Vargas
    Karen Vargas 4 days ago

    This video was on my recommendation and I never saw I and now I saw it and I watched all of it

  • Lunita lobática
    Lunita lobática 4 days ago


  • Brianna Gilbert
    Brianna Gilbert 4 days ago +4

    Dang I was wondering about if there were a bad side of being a youtuber finally got it well im glad your okay

  • Mariahhh !
    Mariahhh ! 5 days ago

    I am so very sorry this happened to you. This made me so angered and I honestly just wanted to yell at these boys. I couldn't imagine how frightened and mentally drained you were during this time. If this happened to me I would see if the police could hide in my house and then once stuff starts happening have them go outside. I am so sorry again, this is just horrible.

  • Isobel Quinn
    Isobel Quinn 5 days ago

    i’ve been in a similar situation but it was over a boy. these 2 girls always popped up where my boyfriend and i were and would scream at us and call me ugly names and i never let it get to me because my boyfriend was being my strong suit. one day comes around and nothing had happened for a week but i ended up telling one of my friends who then went and dm’d the girls which set them off and the next day they came to my school (which they used to go to but didn’t anymore so technically they weren’t allowed on school grounds) and harassed me in the parking lot. they then followed me to lunch and back to school again until i saw my security guard and decided to tell him since he was already watching them tailgate me into the parking lot. it was probably the most dramatic thing that has ever happened and if i ever become a youtuber i will most likely put it in a storytime because wow.

  • Maya Rose
    Maya Rose 5 days ago

    I just found it kinda funny cuz my family buys 6 gallons of milk at least once a week... we just drink a crap ton of milk anyways this was completely irrelevant to every thing I just thought it was funny

  • Kelciee,s Vlogs
    Kelciee,s Vlogs 5 days ago

    She should seriously be a detective

  • ItsMeKc
    ItsMeKc 5 days ago +6

    This could be on the Netflix Original show Black Mirror
    🤔 I can see it now

  • A R E L I
    A R E L I 5 days ago

    TBH my whole family would've gone outside with a weapon and cuss at them then walk normally laughing

    Did I just spend half an hour watching this?!

  • Sky_The galaxy
    Sky_The galaxy 5 days ago +2

    I am very different. Especially out of all the girls in our school me and my bestie take 1st place in being different. Girls r ghetto and watch nail tutorials and so much stuff. Me and my bestie watch and play roblox and lots of other stuff.

  • Cinthia Nicole
    Cinthia Nicole 5 days ago +1

    This was On my recommendations. List And I finally Watched It.

  • Natalie herrera
    Natalie herrera 5 days ago

    I watched till the end and I'm glad your safe and happy again💕🤗

  • Rondididaddy heee
    Rondididaddy heee 5 days ago

    dude this is the first video I’ve fully watched without skipping

  • LilMissMakeupFace
    LilMissMakeupFace 5 days ago

    I would have legit been making some home alone style traps for them

  • gachagirl 609
    gachagirl 609 5 days ago

    i almost started crying cause the things you said at the end of the video made me feel better about myself

  • Quirky Memes
    Quirky Memes 5 days ago +4

    She kinda look like Ariana Grande just staring at her for the whole 35 minutes

  • Itzel
    Itzel 5 days ago

    33:35 - 35:30 is anyone gonna talk about how inspirational this was and true like yess queen

  • brny_
    brny_ 5 days ago +3

    Damn girl, you go girl!!!✊

  • Katherine D
    Katherine D 5 days ago

    My respect for you has skyrocketed but now I'm lowkey scared of starting my own youtube channel lol

  • Sarah Yasmine
    Sarah Yasmine 6 days ago +5

    this video has been recommended to be for the longest time, so here goes nothing :))

  • Sarahr98998
    Sarahr98998 6 days ago +1

    The word you’re looking for is semen, not sperm...

  • Ash Smile
    Ash Smile 6 days ago

    🤮piss and sperm 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤢🤢🤮🤮🤢🤮🤮🤢🤢🤢🤮

  • Adriana Espinoza
    Adriana Espinoza 6 days ago

    I hope that the people who did this to you get pissed on😡

  • Unknown Alex
    Unknown Alex 6 days ago


  • Nidhi Patel
    Nidhi Patel 6 days ago

    i dont know about yall. but i think she is doing an amazing job! she is so honest, strong and her personality is just amazing! She is a real one yanno! i am so sorry that this has happened to u :(

  • Kate Gaming
    Kate Gaming 6 days ago

    Thats so messed up.... No one should do that to you. Your a beautiful girl. Your strong and I hope this dont ever happen again

  • Stephanie Sanchez
    Stephanie Sanchez 6 days ago +3

    You are so strong. You deserve the world and I can’t believe how people can be so mean. Thank you for never giving up

  • 0Flow0
    0Flow0 6 days ago

    Why do people hate you?? Is that normal behavior in your area?

  • Lissett C.
    Lissett C. 6 days ago

    I am really surprised that the cops had so much DNA and they didn't think of analyzing it to see if they can get a match. I mean, urine and sperm on top of finger prints. Smh.... I'm just glad you and your sister and family are ok and the situation was handled. Peace and love to all. 💘

  • Martha Hidalgo
    Martha Hidalgo 6 days ago

    Omg it's my first time watching your vids and they are amazing I am glad you are ok and they got what they deserved even tho they deserved more than that and I already subbed and liked have post notifications on you vids are awesome the BEST!!!!!😁 and girl they better back off love your vids btw

  • Ashley Vibes
    Ashley Vibes 6 days ago

    Gotta love haters...😘😎
    🎼🎤"Love me or Hate me it's still an obsession, Love me or Hate me that is the question. If you love me then, THANK YOU, If you don't then, FUCK YOU!" 🎶🤷🏼😘😉✌🏼

  • Emme Stout
    Emme Stout 6 days ago +2

    Im just glad u guys r ok i hope u guys have a good life

  • Caroline Cox
    Caroline Cox 6 days ago +24

    Caryn- “Whos family buys 4 gallons of milk a once?!”
    Me-*looks at my fridge after grocery shopping at 4 gallons of milk* 😑

  • Astaga Dragoon
    Astaga Dragoon 6 days ago

    Damn,I thought you’re camila cabello

  • Nothing 203
    Nothing 203 6 days ago

    Omg the sperm thing made me so disgusted. The fact that he filled the bottle up and took the time and did it multiple times makes me even more disgusted omg I’m cringing.

  • Monique Stanley
    Monique Stanley 6 days ago

    I started crying because people make me want to kill myself,but then realize that I shouldn't listen to them.

  • Monique Stanley
    Monique Stanley 6 days ago

    I loved it

  • Kris 6742
    Kris 6742 6 days ago

    we buy like 4 or 5 gallons of milk a week lmao

  • lilly pad
    lilly pad 7 days ago +4

    YES U GO GIRL ligit just listening to this story made me want to catch them

  • Kim Taehyung
    Kim Taehyung 7 days ago +45

    My recommendations: Here ya go watch this video
    Me: uhm..Okay!
    Also me: **watches video**
    Me: *AND I OOP-*

  • Crazy Sammy
    Crazy Sammy 7 days ago

    𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖 𝕡𝕖𝕠𝕡𝕝𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕪 𝕁𝕖𝕤𝕦𝕤 (OvO)

  • Kaitlin Meadows
    Kaitlin Meadows 7 days ago

    I respect you so much.

  • Crazy Sammy
    Crazy Sammy 7 days ago

    Oh my gawd this is so bad I wouldn’t trust any of my friends even my best ones!! 𓁹ꨄ𓁹

  • Sh'Ree Gossen
    Sh'Ree Gossen 7 days ago

    She doesn't look like she's in high school she looks older

  • ali
    ali 7 days ago

    That person must've had a lot of food to waste

  • Renee Smith
    Renee Smith 7 days ago

    I would of pressed charges, let him have some time to think in a jail cell, I think he got of too easy

  • Lucky star Paul
    Lucky star Paul 7 days ago

    Omg people need to grow up and get a life that is so disrespectful and if any human can do that I am so just so disappointed altogether!!! No one should have to go to the song like that that person needs counseling or something!!

  • Lily Halston
    Lily Halston 7 days ago

    Why did you put something scary as the thumbnail? It scared me.btw ILYSM❤ and whoever did this I hope you get in trouble for doing something like this.😡

  • Feria Money
    Feria Money 8 days ago +1

    This is disgusting. I actually had a friend who's bf literally trashed the inside of their house with everything in the fridge..I never seen ketchup, hot sauce, BBQ, syrup; literally everything. The sad part about it is he also beat her ass that day and low-key tried to kill her except I believe she was pregnant. The saddest part about that is that she's with him now. I met him a few times before this happened and I couldn't believe that he did that. I will say this though, I know that she would always emasculate him and be condescending to him all the time. He used to have a crush on her and I think one day he just got sick of that shit and he snapped. Sad af. She has multiple children with him now.😭🤔🤪☹️😵😫🤮🤢👎

  • Reyna Alcantar12
    Reyna Alcantar12 8 days ago +4

    They must really be obsessed w you to put this much effort in hurting you .